Saturday, January 24, 2015

Life As We Know It

I knew it had been awhile since I last posted (6 months! Really?!) and because of that I've been putting off posting again, cause well, the task seemed too overwhelming.  It still does, but I have a sick child who's been napping in 3 hour increments, so I figured, what the hell.

One word that could describe our last 6 months would be CRAZY.  I'm just going to touch on a few of the highlights, cause I know I don't want to be here all day, and I'm sure you, the reader, have far better things to do as well.

On October 25th, 2014, our not-so-baby Ava turned 2!  TWO people.  I have a freaking two year old. And my goodness is she wonderful!  They just get better with age :)  She is sassy and sweet, sensitive and hilarious.  She has turned into such an amazing little toddler, with a heart full of gold!  She is my best friend for life.  I don't know what I would do without her.  
 Like most girly 2 year olds these days (or any aged girl for that matter) she is obsessed with Frozen, so I found it only fitting to give her a Frozen themed birthday party.  It was just a small affair, but a good time nonetheless.
And it was unusually warm on her actual birthday, so we decided to take her out for a day of fun at Cornbelly's at Thanksgiving Point.  It was an absolute blast, and I'm thinking we may have to make it a tradition... weather permitting.

The holidays came and went in a blur, they always go by way too fast, but we had an enjoyable holiday season spent with family and friends! 

Daddy's 30th!



Momma's 30th!


And our very unfortunate Christmas Day car accident...
It was LITERALLY the first major snow storm of the season, so of course, all the idiots that don't know how to drive in snow were out on the roads that night.  As we were driving home from my parent's house in Springville, a lady in front of us lost control of her vehicle and we collided with her.  There was no getting around it.  As you can see, the damage was pretty extensive, the car was totaled, but we all walked away unscathed.  There truly were angels with us that night.  It was a very scary, stressful situation, and as a mother, seeing the fear in my child's face, was agonizing.  I pray we will never have to go through something like that again.  

Merry Freaking Christmas right??!

And a Happy New Year!

Which brings me to pretty much the present day, and the two main things I wanted to write about.

First and foremost, my sweet husband has taken on a new job with Netflix!  It sort of all came about really quickly, but it was too good of an opportunity to pass up.  Netflix just opened up a brand new customer service call center here in Salt Lake City, the first center directly owned and operated BY Netflix, and hired him on as one of their supervisors.  Significantly higher salary, with great opportunities for growth.  He started the first part of January and we are both super excited about it.  It's been a long time coming for our little family, so we are thrilled.

I hesitate to write about my next few thoughts, just simply because they are so tender to my heart.  But I know I will look back and be grateful I wrote them down.  Over the last, oh, 5 months or so, Jace and I have been trying to grow our family.  We always had in mind that our children would be in that 2.5 to 3 year gap (which we are still on target for!), but to be honest, I was thinking it would be closer to the 2.5 year mark.  Getting pregnant this second time around is proving to be just as difficult as it was with Ava, which in some ways, is actually harder to deal with.  My body has done this before!  It should know what to do right?  Well, apparently not in my case.  We did have a little glimmer of hope enter our lives back in November, when a pregnancy test read positive.  That glimmer was shattered just a short 2 weeks later, resulting in a miscarriage.  Granted, I wasn't that far along, but a loss is a loss.  It was still hard, and it was still heartbreaking.  

So here we are, two months later, still unsuccessful.  I understand that that's not that long of a time, but when you feel like your biological clock is ticking, it feels like an eternity!  I have been going in to my doctor for monthly blood draws to check hormone levels and such.  This last appointment showed that my body is in fact, not ovulating.  No ovulation means no getting pregnant.  I was joking with Jace the other day and said, "All that practice for nothing!"  And his response, "Well, I wouldn't say for nothing!"  Men.  (Sorry mom and dad for that tad bit of info, Ha!)  My doctor said it's time to start Clomid again, which most of you know is how we got Ava, so here we go!  Praise the Heavens for modern medicine!  If that's how I have to get my babies here, then so be it, I'll get them here! Nasty, unpleasant side effects and all.   

After thinking back on these last few trying months of our lives, I'm reminded that there is a reason for everything and that our Heavenly Father is in control.  He's been aware of my little family's financial stress, and has blessed us with a new job.  He knows my desires to bring more children into this world, and I have the faith and hope that he will bless us with another baby when the time is right.  Until then, I have an incredible little two year old who brings me such joy and happiness, and lifts my spirits when I'm down.  I know there is a reason why she came first, she is my angel :)


Kimber said...

Oh Noell. You're amazing. I'm so sorry to hear that you had a miscarriage. I know that pain all too well. And you're right. A loss is a loss no matter how far along you are. That little angel will be with you forever. We will keep you guys in our prayers and hopefully a little munchie will come join your family soon! We love you guys!

Noell said...

Thanks Kim! Honestly, your little family is such a great example to me of faith and hope! It's nice to have such caring, understanding friends. Love you guys too :)

Krista said...

Noell, I'm so sorry for your loss. A miscarriage is hard no matter the stage. My heart understands your pain. Yet, there is so much hope. I know it will work out for you!! I wish you the best. Your family is absolutely darling!! Ava is so precious!!!! I'm so excited about Jace's new job too. It's an exciting time for you guys. I sure miss you!

Noell said...

Oh Krista, I miss you too! Thank you for your encouraging words.

Nicki said...

I'm so sorry to hear about the miscarriage. We had the same thing happen at the end of October/beginning of November. It's definitely a challenge and very emotional. I hope it happens for you soon. Congrats to the hubby on the new job. We need to do something again sometime :)