The thought of having a baby has always been something on my mind. I am a woman for goodness sake. It's my divine nature to want to be a mother and give life. But other thoughts have pushed their way forward... "We're not financially ready." "We need to be more established and successful." "I'm scared." "Having a baby will change our lives forever." "We're enjoying out time together, just the two of us." All of those thoughts are legit I suppose. I mean, it's normal to factor in all types of concerns when one is considering making a life altering decision. Right?
Right.
Nevertheless, I'm hungry. So ridiculously baby hungry I don't know what to do with myself.
Every magazine I see in the grocery store, pictures another celebrity's 'baby bump'. Every fast Sunday (it seems) there's another baby blessing... sometimes multiple ones. Every Facebook status is announcing the exciting news of the 'new arrival' of their first, their third. It's all around me. Pounding into my brain. I feel like the world is screaming, "DO IT!" And it seems like that's all I can think about... wanting to be pregnant. Wanting to have a baby.
Jace and I have a list. A long one. Consisting of 'oh so darling' names that we wish for our future children. I find myself really, really wanting to put that list to good use. And as of late, I've come to the realization that we will never be 'financially ready' and that yes, 'having a baby will change everything' and that it's completely normal to be scared out of my mind.
But when? When do we make that life altering decision? That is the question that remains unanswered.
